my mom is making me clean my room. i haven't really cleaned it for about a year now. i always just pick up my clothes and put them in the hamper. i love when my room is clean but i just can never bring myself to clean it. it's so exhausting. fortunatley, i can pull the "i'm allergic to dust" card so my mom ends up doing most of the work.

i watched wonder boys this morning. i really, really enjoyed it. it was a great story and it was acted really well. it was also good to see michael douglas with a woman his own age for once, and i'm glad it was frances mcdormand because she kicked ass in almost famous. and of course robert downey jr was great but it just makes things so much sadder because of his greatness.

This is me (this is me...) this is me
Ah... yeah... (this is me) c'mon...

She stole your heart
Only did it because she could
Chewed you up and swapped you around
That girl never was no good
Baby I will never do that
I'll love you faithfully
But your suspicious mind thinks
I'm gonna repeat her story

She's making you crazy
Making you a wreck
Making you follow me
Making me a suspect
You seem to think I'm playing her game
Don't you know her name

That was her, this is me
We're as different as can be
She and I we're nothing alike
You confusing day with night
That was then, this is now
You wanna trust me,
But you don't know how
I'm never gonna mess around,
Set you down, can't you see
That was her (that was her)
And baby this is me (this is me)
(This is me...)

Stop making me feel bad
I'm the best thing you ever had
The only thing I'm guilty of
Is giving you too much love

(She's making you crazy)
She's making you crazy
Making you a wreck
Making you follow me
Making me a suspect
You seem to think I'm playing her game
Don't you know, don't you know her name

Chorus:
That was her, this is me (yeah)
We're different as can be (you gotta know)
She and I are nothing alike (yeah c'mon)
You confusing day with night (day and night)
That was then, this is now (now)
You wanna trust me,
But you don't know how
I'm never gonna mess around,
Set you down, can't you see (see)
That was her (that was her)
And baby this is me (this is me)
(This is me...)

Bridge:
Don't suffocate me, don't misunderstand me
Don't make me pay, for all her mistakes
Believe or not, it's in my kiss
(Don't see things that don't exist)

Repeat Chorus

That was her, this is me (oh...)
We're as different as can be (uh... yeah)
She and I are nothing alike (oh, oh)
You confusing day with night (day and night)
That was then, this is now (you're mine now)
You wanna trust me,
But you don't know how
(You don't know how)
I'm never gonna mess around
(Mess around...)
Set you down, can't you see (c'mon)
That was her (that was her)
And baby this is me (get a grip)

i've officially accepted that im going to fail my math test. in fact, im accepted that this quarter is not going to be a very good one for alison. i think im fine with it. i've reached enlightenment.

dacaterpillar: omg i came home and i smelled like smoke so dad said something so i told him i had a cigarette!
madhatterbee: whoa
dacaterpillar: its kind of funny though cause he totally smelled NOT cigarette smoke
madhatterbee: what happened next
dacaterpillar: he got all paranoid hes like YOU SMELL LIKE A SMOKESTACK
dacaterpillar: haha
madhatterbee: what happened after you told him tho
dacaterpillar: hes like ARE YOU ADDICTED?
dacaterpillar: immediatley afterwards
madhatterbee: whoa
madhatterbee: what did u say
dacaterpillar: im like NO
dacaterpillar: which kind of makes it worse, like i have no excuse to smoke
madhatterbee: hahaha
madhatterbee: no
madhatterbee: it would have been worse to say u were addicted
dacaterpillar: yeah
madhatterbee: that is so intense tho
dacaterpillar: i KNOW

most of this page is just quotes and lyrics but i dont intentionally do that. its just that most of the time these things can explain me then my own words.


See the curtains hangin' in the window
In the evening on a friday night
A little light a shinin' through the window
Let's me know everything's gonna' be alright

Summer breeze makes me feel fine
Blowin' through the Jasmine in my mind
Summer Breeze makes me feel fine
Blowin' through the Jasmine in my mind

See the paper layin on the sidewalk
A little music from the house next door
So I walk on up to the doorstep
Through the screen an across the floor

Summer breeze makes me feel fine
Blowin' through the Jasmine in my mind
Summer Breeze makes me feel fine
Blowin' through the Jasmine in my mind

Sweet days of summer the Jasmines in bloom
July is dressed up and playing her tune
When I come home from a hard days work
And you're waiting there (not) a care in the world

See the smile a waitin' in the kitchen
Food cookin' and the plates for two
Feel the arms that reach out to hold me
In the evening when the day if through...

Summer breeze makes me feel fine
Blowin' through the Jasmine in my mind
Summer Breeze makes me feel fine
Blowin' through the Jasmine in my mind
---Seals & Croft

apparently my sister had a wild weekend and got to go onstage with ben harper when he played at her school. she wanted him to see her play her didjoureedoo (sp?). but then she couldn't play it very well so she had this other kid come up onstage to play it while her and ben jammed out to it.

i hate waking up from naps and having to be functional. it just does not work out

Glamour Genius

Christina Aguilera, move over. Britney Spears, step aside. This girl knows how to be a glamazon, and she's willing to use her knowledge for good instead of evil. You'd never bother trying to lighten your freckles with lemon juice -- you know the difference between beauty myths and bona fide beauty advice. We think you might be looking at a career in Make-up Artistry.

Maybe you should pack up your make-up bags and move to New York so you can start creating beautiful faces on the rich and famous. Or maybe you should just hone your skills on your crew in the girls' bathroom at school. Either way, you go girl.

WORD UP

Most of the time
I'm clear focused all around,
Most of the time
I can keep both feet on the ground,
I can follow the path, I can read the signs,
Stay right with it, when the road unwinds,
I can handle whatever I stumble upon,
I don't even notice she's gone,
Most of the time.

Most of the time
It's well understood,
Most of the time
I wouldn't change it if I could,
I can't make it all match up, I can hold my own,
I can deal with the situation right down to the bone,
I can survive, I can endure
And I don't even think about her
Most of the time.

Most of the time
My head is on straight,
Most of the time
I'm strong enough not to hate.
I don't build up illusion 'till it makes me sick,
I ain't afraid of confusion no matter how thick
I can smile in the face of mankind.
Don't even remember what her lips felt like on mine
Most of the time.

Most of the time
She ain't even in my mind,
I wouldn't know her if I saw her
She's that far behind.
Most of the time
I can't even be sure
If she was ever with me
Or if I was with her.

Most of the time
I'm halfway content,
Most of the time
I know exactly where I went,
I don't cheat on myself, I don't run and hide,
Hide from the feelings, that are buried inside,
I don't compromised and I don't pretend,
I don't even care if I ever see her again
Most of the time.

"Wish I could learn to cover my tracks
cause I'm not concerned with getting away with it.

We both know what I've been doing cause
I've been intentionally bad at lying"-Ani

so i just partied at UCONN and i didn't have a very fun time but i did end up having fun by the end of the night so i don't know if i should be excited to go there or not enthused at all....i have to have faith in my party abilities i suppose! change is good...